I am a bit reluctant to tackle this topic in an off-the-cuff blog entry this morning, but it's on my mind so I am going for it. So, it turns out that I am a bit an egomaniac. Well, that maybe a bit extreme but I recently had an interaction within a group where I had an obvious personality conflict with the facilitator. I have been feeling a little a little bad about the interaction and starting talking to friends about how I was clearly right but the facilitator was unwilling to compromise on their point of view...and isn't that bad? Aren't I right? Can't you see my point here? He/she is so damn stubborn!
Whoa, the dose of truth that came back to me was a little painful to hear. Apparently, it was not the time, nor the place, nor the approach to express myself in this manner and I was overwhelming rude. Ouchy, I am a jerk!
The most pointed question and the hardest to answer was, "why did you think it was your place to say something?" The truth is, I always think it's my place to say something. I am a saya somethinger. If you want an opinion, I got one. If you want advice, I'll give you some. If you want coaching, you came to the right place because I'm a professional!
BUT the reality is not everyone is asking for my thoughts and I'm offering them up anyway. I have been doing this unconsciously and while I feel like my intentions are mostly set in positive places; it is an obnoxious habit that I need to work on. And oh boy, obnoxious habits that you see in yourself can really swirl up a shame tornado.
I don't really have a resolution here or a way to wrap up this post with a pretty observation or a nod to all new wonderful colors of the world I see now. Growing and being conscious of egocentric behaviors is hard work. I can't lie about that but I know for sure that it's work that improves relationships and removes a lot of different heartache and uncertainty in your life. It's the work that matters...so I keep doing it.